gone is the light

Into the darkness we must go
Gone, gone is the light
Into the darkness we must go
Gone, gone is the light

Jesus remember me
When you enter your kingdom
Jesus remember me
When your kingdom comes

Father forgive them
They know not what they do
Father forgive them
They know not what they do

"Gone is the Light" by Gord Johnson

I remember meeting Gord, through our then friend Steve Bell.  Gord's guitar style was skilled and soothing, like Steve's but with a decidely different feel.  He came to play at our coffee houses, we saw in him the struggle of an artist trying to make it but having to go back to his day job.  Now years later, a compliation of worship music has been done by friend, Steve Bell...written by Gord.  Simple and beautifully constructed and written it has been a highlight for me to learn, play and root these songs in my heart and mind.  I remember a coffehouse I went to when I was pregnant with my first boy, I was sick, depressed, unreachable.  Gord was playing that night and he was able to reach into that darkness, guided by God's Spirit, to the place I roiled with pain.  He sat down with us at the break and he spoke into my darkness with grace, saying that his wife had been through years of depression and darkness.  He knew because he had walked through it with his wife.  This morning I walked through a similiar valley, it's been years of wavering between this darkness and light, depression and a clear blasting joy....and I'm tired, weary and ready to give up any sort of understanding of this heart-aching process.  I know deep down the reality of Christ in me, the surrender I must give and the wait for His rescue.  Gord's song is mine today..."into the darkness we must go",  "Jesus remember me!", "Father forgive them".  Then I wait, wait.  Wait for my heart to settle, wait for His rescue.  I wait.